merry christmas.the sun was beautiful today.im so full.koichi lost the scarf i knitted him (and only gave him 2 hours earlier), it feels like it is five hours later than it is so im off to bed.really looking forward to having nothing to do for a few days.really want to knit one of theseor two.
the days are becoming a blur.i am talking to myself.buying fruit without seeing it.knitting in the dark.riding my bike faster than normal.im rushing rushing.im giving away the delicious organic chocolate i got from koichi.im not normal.wild rice.how beautiful is wild rice.
my family are having a christmas party tonight.i will use the should word.i should be there.i got two beautiful parcels tonight.one from my sister anita one from my mum.i wasnt going to oopen them until christmas but the other two couldnt wait.hana is in love with her new friends as am i and i want to use her new purse.i could have called to thank them as they are all under the one roof tonight but i couldnt make it anymore real that i am not there too.
ive been baking all day.and everything else.the house smells beautiful.so thick it is i can taste it.maybe.that could just be that i havent stopped eating while i have been cooking.
i bought new clothes.at the family sale.beautiful.and they make it easier to get dressed in the morning.
other than that, who knows.
i think i may have cut my final piece of paper and washed oil pastel from my fingers for the last time this year tonight.moving right along there is knitting sewing and baking to be done.and the dreaded have i really cut my final piece of paper, washed oil pastel from my fingers for the last time this year, meeting tomorrow followed by a family sale of beautiful clothes that will hopefully fit some part of my body.
last minute madness to send off gifts.i even braved shibuya on a weekend in the rain carrying hana on my hip for at least 3 hours. no photos of shibuya.the maple trees are so beautiful.my christmas paper is definately autumn inspired, not very chrismassy at all.
hana wants a letter for christmas from santa.
the christmas lights looked very cool reflecting in the gocco.
there are far too many patterns and clutter in this house.no wonder i cant sleep.and i really should sleep because im taking too many shortcuts in the daytime. and koichi is on a plane to america.with a list as long as my leg of supplies to bring us back.and i am a single mother again.working in the day and at night.and im doing it.and i should sleep.and i should finish my work instead of procrastinating so i can make the christmas presents i so want to.
yesterday i forgot my sketchbooks at work so they arrived here today with all the others i left there 2 or 3 years ago.inside this huge box were many of the small boxes i used to keep on my desk.the kitchen was my favourite haunt at work because we were sent so many beautiful sweets from all over japan in the most beautiful patterned and coloured boxes.i made many trips to the kitchen on the day it looked like the box was fianlly going to be empty. when i opened them tonight i found some things im not sure are still mine but i really want to keep.
added to my morning ritual of folding futons and coffee making and nappy changing etcetc is sliding a door 30cm at around 9 ish to let the sun dance rainbows on the wooden beam and if im lucky warm my toes.
had a meeting today about new patterns and it went well.
i have a green light and i need to speed.i didnt realise that next week is the start of december.and my next meeting with developed ideas is the 2 of december.oh dear.and friends visiting tomorrow the next day and the day after.i really want to cancel partly because i have a problem with schedules and socialising but i know it is really better for me and hana not too. i am such a hermit. and the house really does need a clean.which saddens me that it takes someone to come over for me to really look at the house.like renovating just because you are going to sell.maybe not.
i did buy hana some beautiful flowers today including some little berries as she has a fascination with all things round /small and botanical.my favourite she says. i was feeling pink after the meeting. and hana is also liking playdough.
finished.did i mention i was knitting a hat for hana with 4 needles.first time to succeed.i perservered even though it drove me a little crazy and i have seen many cute hats come into the shops this season that i could easily have bought.knitting time is kinda scarce at the moment.but, i am so proud i could do it and hana loves it.this is the patternhere found through ravelry.
because brita asked me.
1.i have no favourite colour food smell movie or music
2.i like to fold cloth
3.i dont know what i look like from behind and wouldnt know even if i could see
4.my fathers sister turns 100 today and i would love to see her
5.i prefer plain clothes to patterned but most of my clothes are patterned and i am a textile print designer
6.actually hana is my favourite smell
7.is taking too much of my sleep time..
have spent the evening reheating my waterbottle and cutting into beautiful papers without any idea of what i am cutting out but hoping that it will turn out beautiful.unfortuanately for me, the paper and my boss it didnt.oh dear.pressure to create.kills it everytime.
i have a deadline.big one.lots of patterns in little time.so i am knitting.with double pointed needles.and im thinking of my mum.and how much id love to show her. i can finally do it (knit) because i dont know what to draw.its amazing all the things i can do when i have a deadline.