the days are becoming a blur.i am talking to myself.buying fruit without seeing it.knitting in the dark.riding my bike faster than normal.im rushing rushing.im giving away the delicious organic chocolate i got from koichi.im not normal.wild rice.how beautiful is wild rice.
my family are having a christmas party tonight.i will use the should word.i should be there.i got two beautiful parcels tonight.one from my sister anita one from my mum.i wasnt going to oopen them until christmas but the other two couldnt wait.hana is in love with her new friends as am i and i want to use her new purse.i could have called to thank them as they are all under the one roof tonight but i couldnt make it anymore real that i am not there too.
ive been baking all day.and everything else.the house smells beautiful.so thick it is i can taste it.maybe.that could just be that i havent stopped eating while i have been cooking.
i bought new clothes.at the family sale.beautiful.and they make it easier to get dressed in the morning.
other than that, who knows.